SENIOR YEAR BABBBYYYY!!!!!!!
It's amazing how the new school year gives you so much opportunity for changing. It also is a time that i'm normally failing to make those changes, reach those goals, and keep those promises i made to myself about starting the year. This year though, i'm gonna really work to make those changes! Because this is the last year I have before entering into a whole new world where no one will know me. A world where no one will know the mistakes i've made. (although i do hope i'll get to know some well enough to tell them :)
What changes do i wanna make besides my usual eat less run more (Not that those wouldn't be nice :P) Well for starters I wouldn't mind if my mom would stop telling me that i'm mean and bossy with my friends/family. I don't mean duck tape her mouth so she stops saying it, i mean figuring out what reasons she has for saying it and trying to change! I wouldn't mind being a litle more respectful and supportive of my guy friends (not that they deserve it!) because that is apparently what they need in life. I would like to over react a little less to like...everything :P I wanna be a better friend, I wanna monopolize conversation less, mainly i wanna become the kind of person that everybody can trust to listen to them, keep their secrets, give them advice when they ask for it, and comfort them when they're hurt. Cause i feel like those people are getting rarer and rarer.
Some thing else i've been thinking about a LOT lately - I mean what girl isn't?!...and if you don't...shut up and tell me your secret - Guys.
Oh the stupid fools that get all our attention, make us cry, make us scream and bang our headson various objects, make us laugh until we cry again, and turn us into people htat prank in the middle of the night ad ruing church :P pretty much turn us into heathens.
The past couple years i'm always telling myself "you're gonna be the girl that
1) isn't a flirt
2) doesn't like anyone
3)doesn't ACT like she likes anyone
4) and definitely deon't slowly pine away over having or not have a boyfriend"
Well since i was in 8th grade that has been pretty easy - especially the 1st, 3rd, and 4th thing. There was that one year though...but i've kind of erased that from my brain :D
I'm pretty sure though when i made that list, i was...well...in 8th grade. FACT. i'm a girl. (yes i thankfully realize this) Girls are attracted to guys. and whoever decided that girls need to be less distracting to guys and guys can do whatever the heck they want cause girls never get distracted was A FREAKIN IDIOT!
So now that list has become completely and utterly IMPOSSIBLE! (cept number 1:PP)
#2. don't like anyone
HA. (At this point in typing I thought of when in The Lion King Simba says "HA I laugh in the face of danger" which led me to think about how i used to love saying Mufasa in a very ramatic voice repeatedly to annoy everyone (mainly mark and jen) which of course led me to rekindle my love for saying that name by saying it like 8 millio times - detour much!) annnyways, yeah. ha. ain't happenin
#3. don't ACT like i like anyone
well. complication. that shan't be listed on here :P
#4. don't pine over not having a boyfriend
thought today as i looked as someone elses pictures "i WANT a boyfriend!" like. now!
so fail. at life
I've decided to update...and change my list
1. still stands - don't be an idiotic flirt girl. nobody likes those
2. go ahead. like someone. in fact. make life easier for yourself and PICK someone to like. then like them in your head and do nothing about it :P
3. kind of the same as before...but...you like somebody - treat them with respect, no sarcasm, try not to hurt their feelings or be a jealous idiot, but don't go around saying "i don't like anybody, because that's dumb and you shouldn't do it till college" you not 2 natalie. just don't go telling them...you know what happened last time
4. well. once again go ahead. pine away. but tunnel the pining into something useful. like becoming the person that that guy will love and cherish! yay! now you can pine and possibly get one!
I'm not going into this anymore. except to say that GUYS WITH ABS AND MUSCLES NEED TO STOP TAKING OF THEIR SHIRTS.
I will do these things, cause i can. cause i wanna be a better person! cause...cause i can :) this is the year baby. the year everything will change! LETS MAKE IT A GOOOOOODDDD ONE!
